The night of February 20, 2005, I went out with a bang…
Yep, I banged myself up pretty darn good by tumbling down a flight of stairs that night in a drunken blackout. Blackout drinking was all too familiar in my life at the time, but that night was exceptional… I quite possibly could have become a member of the 27 Club. I woke the next morning, battered and bruised, physically and emotionally, and finally decided that enough was enough.
I struggled with alcohol since I picked up my first drink at age 16. It immediately became my favorite escape and stayed with me for more than a decade to come. I tortured myself with hangovers, sleepless nights, poor choices, meaningless/ broken intimate relationships, self-loathing, shame, guilt, anxiety, and depression.
Undoubtedly, divine intervention had occurred as a result of that fall. Looking back, I see it as a huge neon sign from the Universe that said STOP. The next day I attended my first 12-Step recovery meeting saying to myself “How in the F did I end up here?”… I seriously felt like such a failure… It took me a while to understand the inherent danger of alcoholism.
Alcohol-freedom is one of the most difficult things I’ve ever achieved and also the best. The beginning stages of addiction recovery were not easy. The band-aid had been ripped off and all the pain came to the surface to finally be addressed. I realized how much I had betrayed myself and was so regretful.
Despite the challenges, I kept showing up for my recovery. Supportive relationships, yoga, nutritious foods, spiritual teachers and many alternative healing modalities have helped me transform along the way. The process was slow at first, but a tiny voice inside of me encouraged me that I had the ability to heal myself. Over the past 14 years, it has taken a couple of meanderings in and out and back into sobriety before leading me to the life I live now – alcohol-free, healthy, and abundant in opportunity, prosperity, connection and love. I feel energized, content, and a wonderful sense of freedom. I enjoy life more because I’m simply able to be more present for it, relishing in small gratitudes which create fulfillment.
If you are ready to discover the tools you need for a lifetime of balance and wholehearted love, I invite you to schedule a free Discovery Session with me today!
MY TWIN FLAME JOURNEY
I moved back to my hometown Sacramento, CA in 2014 after 8 years in the Big Apple. A heartbreak (from a wonderful soulmate relationship) and the long, cold east coast winters drove me back to the sunshine. A psychic intuitive who I had worked with for many years in the city planted this little seed in my ear too - “Your soulmate has called you home.”
Sure enough, shortly after re-establishing my roots back on the west side, I met my twin flame. I did not know about “twin flames” at the time but my, oh my, did we see shooting stars to the moon upon meeting each other, “soul recognition” as they call it. Unfortunately, that period of pure bliss didn’t last too long. A couple of months in, we started to trigger the hell out of each other until we separated…
Needless to say, I was completely devastated as many of us experience when our twin physically flees the scene. (Twin flames are always connected in divine truth, however). I began to unravel in utter confusion as to why my twin denied the magnitude of our connection, because it was UNDENIABLE to me. Like no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t shake it (and still can’t)! So I fucking lost it and went through a Dark Night of the Soul. The pain of “separation” was unbearable. I temporarily reverted back to the old destructive lifestyle ways of excessive drinking and casual sex to numb my feelings. And I dumped tons of money into psychic readings trying to make sense of it all. I felt like I was taking crazy pills!
Along the way, I learned that we were twin flames (thanks to a few of those gifted readers), sharpened my own intuitive skills and studied the phenomenon. Turns out, “twin flame” ain’t your average soulmate. The twin flame dynamic is much more than a romance novel. The purpose of this sacred connection is to assist the Ascension. As we reflect and provoke all the pain up and out of each other, we heal and return to our wholeness by the means of unconditional love. It’s about self-love and accepting our twin no matter what. Twin flames have received this huge Gift from God to dissolve ego, to stop buying into the illusion of separation and to release lifetimes of hurt, resentment, blame, anger, jealousy, shame, fear of intimacy, fear of loss, fear of abandonment, etc, … So we can consciously rewrite the story of true love.
The twin flame journey is not for the faint of heart. There are so many twists, turns, ups and downs on this intense ride. Trust me, I have tried with all my might to get off! But my twin flame remains my ultimate muse. So I’ve gathered the courage deep within me to stay, to surrender to this Gift and actually enjoy the adventure. I’m grateful for the guidance and tools I’ve received from several amazing teachers, as well as my own Spirit Guides, who help me to consciously make the best choices for my (our) soul and become a powerful magnet of love.
The best gift I’ve received from my path is the inspiration to share this journey with you! I believe that each journey is unique. I work one-on-one with you to help you heal past hurts, find acceptance on the current stage of your path and to raise the love frequency between you and your twin flame.
Michelle migrated from California to New York City in 2006. She became certified as a health coach at The Institute for Integrative Nutrition in 2008, and equipped with extensive knowledge in holistic nutrition, sustainable lifestyle choices and spiritual development. Drawing on these skills and her knowledge of different dietary theories, she works with clients to help them make lifestyle changes that produce real and lasting results.
Michelle received her Yoga Teacher Certification in 2012 from Greenhouse Holistic in Brooklyn, where she was trained in Asana, Pranayama, Yoga Sadhana, Scripture, Mantra, Meditation and more. She incorporates much of the magical, philosophical tools of Yoga in her health coaching programs.
Michelle is also a Certified Reiki 2 Practitioner as of May 2014 and a graduate of Magdalen University, Energy Work and Psychic Reading School for Practitioners, 2017