The night of February 20, 2005, I went out with a bang…
Yep, I banged myself up pretty darn good by tumbling down a flight of stairs that night in a drunken blackout. Blackout drinking was all too familiar in my life at the time, but that night was exceptional… I quite possibly could have become a member of the 27 Club. I woke the next morning, battered and bruised, physically and emotionally, and finally decided that enough was enough.
I struggled with alcohol since I picked up my first drink at age 16. It immediately became my favorite escape and stayed with me for more than a decade to come. I tortured myself with hangovers, sleepless nights, poor choices, meaningless relationships, self-loathing, shame, guilt, anxiety, and depression.
Undoubtedly, divine intervention had occurred as a result of that fall. Looking back, I see it as a huge neon sign from the Universe that said STOP. The next day I attended my first 12-Step recovery meeting saying to myself “How in the F did I end up here?”… I seriously felt like such a failure… It took me a while to understand the inherent danger of alcoholism.
Alcohol-freedom is one of the most difficult things I’ve ever achieved and also the best. The beginning stages of addiction recovery were not easy. The band-aid had been ripped off and all the pain came to the surface to finally be addressed. I realized how much I had betrayed myself and was so regretful.
Despite the challenges, I kept showing up for my recovery. Supportive relationships, yoga, nutritious foods, spiritual teachers and many alternative healing modalities have helped me transform along the way. The process was slow at first, but a tiny voice inside of me encouraged me that I had the ability to heal myself. Over the past 14 years, it has taken a couple of meanderings in and out and back into sobriety before leading me to the life I live now – alcohol-free, healthy, and abundant in opportunity, prosperity, connection and love. I feel energized, content, and a wonderful sense of freedom. I enjoy life more because I’m simply able to be more present for it, relishing in small gratitudes which create fulfillment.
If you are ready to discover the tools you need for a lifetime of balance and wholehearted love, I invite you to schedule a free Discovery Session with me today!
Michelle migrated from California to New York City in 2006. She became certified as a health coach at The Institute for Integrative Nutrition in 2008, and equipped with extensive knowledge in holistic nutrition, sustainable lifestyle choices and spiritual development. Drawing on these skills and her knowledge of different dietary theories, she works with clients to help them make lifestyle changes that produce real and lasting results.
Michelle received her Yoga Teacher Certification in 2012 from Greenhouse Holistic in Brooklyn, where she was trained in Asana, Pranayama, Yoga Sadhana, Scripture, Mantra, Meditation and more. She incorporates much of the magical, philosophical tools of Yoga in her health coaching programs.
Michelle is also a Certified Reiki 2 Practitioner as of May 2014 and a graduate of Magdalen University, Energy Work and Psychic Reading School for Practitioners, 2017